I am so proud of Morgan these days. She is just blossoming. She struggles so much last year at school. After we had her learning disabilities diagnosed and worked on boosting her self estimate when it can to reading she made great leaps and bounds this summer in reading. We are getting her sensory and fine motor skills evaluated and she will hopefully start her OT soon. She LOVES her teacher this year…it is such a great match. Her reading is on track and even though she works at her spelling she is succeeding (actually she is getting a lot of 100%). She is finally seeing herself as a smart girl. She has lots of friends and is feeling comfortable with her place in the family, with her friends, and as a student. The only thing missing in her little life is an animal. Morgan is one of those kids who animals just naturally follow and obey. She is such a calm, in control, happy little soul…she has so much to teach me. Her allergies have been really bad lately but it still looks like we can get a small hypo-allergenic dog next summer…she will be so happy.

I have been having such a rough time trying to balance my involvement in Shannen’s life. My Shannen is such an interesting person. I always have said that if we were both 20 years old together we would be such great friends….but that can make for a hard time being her parent. Shannen is currently having a rough time with life. She is very bright and is starting to mistrust that the adults in her life are always right. I would be some-what prepared for this if she was 16 or even 13 but she is 7. If she is feeling like this now I am concerned for what the future holds.

I have a hard time seeing my kids in trouble and it makes me want to do something NOW so that they wont have one more second of discomfort. I know that some discomfort is good and will make her a stronger person but trying to find the line between letting her find her own way, her own footing and seeing her will broken is really and truly hard. Things are always interesting with my girls because they are twins and they have such a tight connection. Morgan can always tell when her sister is off and when I need to step in more. Morgan will handle me focusing in on her sister for a while but even I can see she will need some energy soon. I wish I knew how to do this right…how to make sure I give them all they need so that they can be happy and successful.

I have been trying to give the girls some good energy after Collin and Tristan go to bed but it is not always easy. I get tired and need down time too…I guess I have been leaning on their school a little too much and have to realign my time.

A bit about my husband. Todd and I meet at RPI (wow) 13 years ago and just celebrated our 10th weeding anniversary. We have been parents and have run a business together for the last 7 years. I can easily say that Todd is my best friend and I would never be able to make it through this crazy life without him. Even though life may not always bring the best out in us we try to keep each other going and relish in the fact that we still like each other most days. That being said I’m sure I will post during my moments of sheer frustration with everyone around me…so to Todd I say I’m sorry, I love you, and *smooch*

So I have moved into this century and decided that I might have time to enter all the funny, frustrating, and endearing things that happen to and around me if I can type instead of writing in a baby book or journal (which I have failed at lately). I have always wished I were the type of girl who would sit quietly at night and write all these wonderful, funny, and exciting things but lets face it that is just not going to happen. And please don’t get me started on the baby books. I have 2 wonderfully full books for my twins and two beautifully empty books for my boys that sit next to my bed taunting me with the bad mommy chorus. So here goes. I will be a girl who can enter great and witty things in a blog…or at least record my crazy life.