Wow I am so happy to have 2 minutes to myself. I have been a true ball of stress for the past several months and I have been trying to find a way to decompress. It seems like nothing does the trick. I was finally so stressed out and overbooked that I hurt myself (why does it seem to take that?). After several days of recovery everyone else seemed to get sick…so that was it I needed to get myself better. On top of everything else we had a vacation to Florida to visit family planned. It seemed to be the worst timing ever and I was frankly not in the mood to be traveling. You know the packing, the whinny kids, and the end of the routine. Well it seems like an end to my normal routine is just what I needed. I have relaxed, been able to sleep (that has not been going so well), and Todd and I remember each other and have had several whole minutes strung together to say….have a conversation. It feels like the butterflies that have been living beneath my skin for the past year and a half have up and left. Sure the kids have had their moments and I almost had one of my 3 am panic attacks about the business (stopped it in mid-panic) but all and all I have been good. Maybe it is the sound of the water (I am so getting a wave CD) or the cool breeze at night….but maybe it is just shutting off my brain, giving myself a break, and not worrying that my world could cave in at any minute that has given me this new found peace. I will bottle up some of this feeling to take home. I will not step off the plane and along with the cold weather bring back the weight of the world, the worry of everyone I know, and the insecurities that have been plaguing me. I will remember to breath, press my shoulders down away from my ears, and retain a sense of peace that things have a way of working out. I enjoy this feeling…I crave this feeling….of happiness