I have really been feeling disconnected from myself lately. The kids have been so needy lately (not that I am complaining….but I am complaining) that I feel like I haven’t thought about myself for a while. I have never wanted (or been happy) to be one of those moms who devotes herself 24/7 to her kids needs. I have felt that when they grew up if I acted that way I would have nothing to do and pine for them or try to live my life through them. That is why I have always wanted to work…so I had an identity outside of mom. Lately even work time has been taken up with them. I know this will not last forever but I am feeling like the me inside me is getting kicked around a bit. I have let my exercise time go (mostly because my neck still hurts) and I need that time to feel like a person. Todd has been so busy at work lately I feel like I have not seen him in months and I am not sure I am capable of having a conversation with another adult without sounding idiotic! I do know that this is not how I will feel forever…tired and neglected (by myself) but sometimes when you are in the middle of those feelings they are all consuming.